Starrgrrl

My name is..........................

2004-03-02T06:09:02Z

A dead grrl walking for half my life.
Fall brought goodbye to self loathing,& hate.
Consumed by resentments a silent killer.
Who would of thought I'D be without a miller.

Awake from the dead
Still fucking sick in my head

Released from the prison of misery,
the wounded child was laid to rest.
It's living to live, not living in fear.
Hey what the hell happened to my beer?

Awake form the dead
Still fucking sick in my head

So so tired

2003-08-17T19:46:16Z

yesterday was an insane day.....I woke up @ around 7 a.m. ..we decided to have a yard sale in the blistering sun....X games after party @ the Roxy ruled! social distortion was the surprise guest band...... they rocked!! good times...... I fell asleep around 4 a.m............. I was on the phone with Mike for awhile, it felt like he was with me @ the Roxy.... I'm going out to meet him in a couple cities in a few weeks...I can't wait! btw we must have a Marnie Rocks 'online' party.....cuz she has to wake up early the next few days.....she truly loves her friends & bends over backwards for everyone, & she's always there for them no matter what..... ppl like Marnie rarely exist & need to be reminded how special they are..... AND how grateful EVERYONE is to have her as a friend! :) We're off to a shrimp on the barbie.........

starrgrrl @ 2003-08-13T20:01:00

2003-08-14T03:22:16Z

yesterday i went to chill with Amanda......it was the funniest thing ..US trying to be domesticated.......I suggested no ironing EVER - that's what they created downey wrinkle remover in a bottle for.. ;) or better yet the dry cleaners hahaha.......... both of us making washing decisions was comedy.....if only we had a video camera. It's like a house wife trying to rock in a band for the first time..... a few of my fav words nanny, maid, assistant haha
words can not explain our day....... my lips & tongue were bloody red from the fantastic strawberry sno cones Amanda made for me....DELICIOUS! (pics from my phone will be posted shortly) later i joined Marnie@ Spaceland for campfire girls....although i missed them cuz i was taking a nappy poo ....arriving when the bar is closing is always fun...i enjoy drunk ppl watching....always a pleasure. one word IDIOTS :) l8r

OK MY PITY PARTY IS OVER........

2003-08-12T03:34:26Z

I feel alot better. It's all good.......the heat is miserable! i'm sooooooooo addicted to the pic phone.... love it! that's helped alot... I'm going to Karaoke .......haven't done it in awhile being that i've been sick for about a month & a half........ no more tanning for me....i'm thinking about doing my hair blue/black again........ oh yeah why did Judd Nelson almost run me over the other day? .....hahaha

:(

2003-08-09T17:12:50Z

It's worse than I thought......this week will be the hardest. Last night I went out with Marnie, Kristin, and Ashley. Thanks you grrls rock! I got funguled and on the way home we stopped at the del taco Mike & I always go to.......I completely lost it . I cried all the way home & continued to until I fell asleep. I'm being such a dork right now.... gotta keep myself really busy.... I truly believe I have found my soul mate. We got to spend more time than I thought we had yesterday. It was very cool! My hand almost got completely slammed in a car door ....it was caught b4 it shut all the way. It still hurts right now. But, I feel no physical pain can compare to the pain in my heart............

IT'S FINALLY ARRIVED.........

2003-08-08T18:46:17Z

I'VE BEEN DREADING THIS DAY. MY BABY IS LEAVING ON TOUR TODAY.....HATED IT!........
I GUESS IT'S MY TURN TO BE LEFT SINCE I'M THE ONE WHO'S ALWAYS LEAVING ON TOUR.
SO WEIRD .......WHAT AM I GONNA DO WITH MYSELF? HE'S MY BESTEST FRIEND AMONG OTHER THINGS....I'VE NEVER MET ANYONE LIKE HIM. WE'VE BEEN INSEPARABLE SINCE DAY ONE.....ATLEAST WE HAVE THE PIC PHONES (THAT SHOULD MAKE IT A LITTLE EASIER) I MUST KEEP MYSELF BUSY....HARLOW WILL BE RECORDING (GOOD THING),
MARNIE & I ARE GOING TO REDECORATE HER ROOM, AND AUNTY PIKLES & I MUST FIND A NEW APT......... IT WILL BE WEIRD & LONELY .....ATLEAST MY FRIENDS WILL BE THERE FOR ME (I WILL DEF NEED THEM) .... :( I WAS TRYING TO BE REALLY HAPPY LAST NIGHT. OTHERWISE I WOULD HAVE CRIED ALL DAY LONG...I DIDN'T WANT HIM TO SEE ME SAD.....
I FEEL LIKE CRAWLING INTO A DARK PIT & HYBERNATING TILL HE COMES HOME........

starrgrrl @ 2003-08-06T20:12:00

2003-08-07T03:25:11Z

the show @ the viper room rocked! i can't believe my Dad showed up... that was really cool being that he's never seen Harlow....... it seems like i spent most of the night looking for everyone...alone......so weird becuz the viper is not that big...it was just 2 packed. i will tell all l8r.....promise............set list & all ;-) or maybe i can leave that 2 meadowgirl....gtg ...prediction for this weekend ....i will be a complete wreck.........

HATED IT!!!!!!!

2003-07-20T23:10:49Z

i'm so fucking sick it sucks! add pms, and hot ass weather = good times......RIgHt i've been non stop no rest for the wicked....... Marnie just brought me vegetarian vegetable soup in bed ....thanks Marnie you rule! Chimene is having a shrimp on the barbie.... :( i wanted to go!
But, I can't get everyone sick, and i can't get outta bed....someone sent me flowers at work cuz i've been sick...thank you so very nice! i wish i knew who....... im gonna go back to sleep......i watched blow last night at like 4 am ...gr8 movie! johnny depp is awesome! ok

Bizzy Beez in Harlowland.....

2003-07-11T00:15:21Z

everything is coming together cool & faster than we thought.......... good cuz my patience is little to none (new year's resolution?) I've done alot today considering I let the eagle outta the cage last night ......

they finally met yesterday....;) monster's inc. ... 2 funny ......
still bloopy.
yes this is not suppose to make sense.
why does it have to be so damn hot? gtg meet Marnie@ the pool
L8

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2003-07-06T22:49:45Z

What an evenful 4th of July........good times! Atleast nothing got burnt down.......Let's stroll down memory lane .. And one time @ band camp, we were having a 4th of July party needless to say I was completely funguled. Someone gives me a lit roman candle.......I didn't know what it did......all of a sudden it starts shooting out colorful balls of FIRE......I could barely control it in the state I was in ....all I can remember is people screaming & running around......I almost barbequed my peeps, actually one guy was hurt, but got over it l8r. Fireworks & alcohol do not mix....................................
I felt bad, but it was too funny.

I need a break from the shrimp on the barbies.....

something great happened this weekend...I didn't think I could fall deeper bloop bloop

starrgrrl @ 2003-07-01T22:11:00

2003-07-02T05:21:06Z

HARLOW!!!!!!!!!!

The show must go on.........

2003-07-01T01:47:17Z

I'm glad to say NOTHING will stop Harlow........Amanda is feeling a little better today...
rehearsal will continue, new songs, shows........... we're very excited to rock again. shit Marnie fucked it up now i forgot whaT I WAS GONNA SAY.........L8R

@#$*^%

2003-06-21T22:31:48Z

The Roxy had a surprise show it was JAY-Z! ....it was cool to see him in a small venue.....Eve 6 played last night along with Rumblefish..... saw Hoobastank really cool live...... Josh Todd @ the keyclub rocked as always, tight band....

so thankful for my great friends.......

TODAY BOYS SUCK!!!

MY MALIBU SUMMER

2003-06-16T22:26:14Z

Sorry I haven't posted for awhile ..........NO I didn't get kidnapped & join an occult in Utah, Vegas twice, hmmmm where should I begin? Once again I'm completely sun burnt it hurts to wear clothes... Gena & Biggins wedding in Vegas was awesome! The luau by the hotel pool was the start of my sun burn which was like 3 weeks ago ??? I think.... Casino Royale still has 25cent roulette ( but i still played like it was a ten dollar min table) dumb I could've played longer but still fun......Mike & I took lots of funny drunk vegas pics (they might just show up in my journal someday ;) ...) got back & 3 days l8tr off to Salt lake tity oops city....Utah is so b-e-a-Utiful.....i didn't want to leave....we went camping (scary) but, it ended up being really cool. Mike took me 4 wheeling UP a huge mountain. We were not far from the top. Yes we got stuck up there for about 45 mins the 4 wheeler was over heated I think. I thought I was gonna die.... surrounded by bees, wasps, in the woods, the sun beating down on us @ high noon, no one knows where we're at, have no cell, then Mike says he's always had the worst luck up there, so i started trippin...I hate nature i hate the dark i hate the woods I hate insects i have poison oak now etc.... then it started & we headed back down....scary fun! On our way back from Utah we got kidnapped by aliens on the Arizona border, so afterwards we had to stop & rest in Vegas I was sick with a cold. HATED IT! That night was my luckiest night I won on an I love Lucy slot(i'll jest take this dolla tu da klub) machine & hit 3 times in a row on the roulette table. I didn't want to go to bed. I've been staying @ my friends beach house in Malibu... I love the ocean it's so peaceful, & the reflection from the moon on the water is breath taking, I've been watching the dolphins & thinking of Nemo haha, hence the worst sunburn..... i never want to leave NEVER...the beach makes me very very happy.....I do get a little scared by myself there ....kinda like 'i know what you did last summer' but i think oh well if i die here i would be happy.....
Wanna give a happy bday shout out to my mommy, bro, cousin Reby, Andrew.....& all you other Gemini's.
Amanda you are truly the best, and I love you I'm glad you are alive, there's a reason, we must continue to rock!
Get well soon! We have to rehearse ;P xoxo......... Amanda has inspired me to tell all how truly blessed I am to have them in my life. Marnie you rock and I'm so thankful for all you do & who you are love ya (bringin the book settle down) ;) Coco puff i love you, you are so talented, there's no stopping you, u rule!!! Mike you know u rock! very talented & oh so dreamy love ya! thanks for being a part of my crazy life. Kristin love ya! Thanks for all the advice, and everything you do. I'm very proud of you!!! this list will have to cont. i'm feeling to emo today...and this long ass entry better post.......

WHAT KIND OF CHEESE IS NOT YOUR CHEESE?

2003-05-24T09:22:43Z

OH YEAH! Preparing for another Vegas adventure...... :D :D The wedding of the year Gena & Biggin.....They're
getting married on Monday.... Roulette is calling my name mmmmmMMMMMEeeeLLLoOOoDdDDddyyyyyyY! Atleast I know the cure for hangovers O-X-Y-G-E-N B-A-R! They better have a seat with my name on it.
This calls for 1 1/2 hours of Taebo tomorrow... dammit...... I'm 2 excited, and really tired.....

lol

2003-05-23T04:08:42Z

I am a giant mutant kitten. Not strange at all.

Which cute or possibly strange kitten are you?
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KERMIT THE FROG'S FINGER

2003-05-22T03:34:50Z

finally it's getting hot in herrrrrr! went swimming yesterday..... fun.....saw Matrix reloaded survey says... HATED IT! missed Deftones on monday but it's all good saw Josh Todd instead (rocked btw!) @ the Troubadour w/ murder dolls. gotta love the free shows! ;) yes Vegas is calling again.....

I've been thinking alot lately about the 'typical cliche' society expects from us.. go 2 college, get a corporate desk job, get married have kids, etc..... It def doesn't have to be that way! There's nothing wrong with chasing your dreams! It is possible to live a different type of spontaneous life, if you actually have the balls to do it! I think that's the future for happier humans...... I really really enjoy my life & all it's surprises good or bad....... peace

what's long & green & smells like pork? (answer l8r)

2003-05-18T08:28:27Z

busy week for cool shows.... saw Marilyn Manson on monday @ the keyclub... rocked!
Post stardom depression (my seattle homies) 2 thumbs up ...went with Amanda & Marnie... then headed over to Verbena .. cool band...... I missed NOFX ...very very upset about that. I love their shows they are gr8 & sooooo funny.

checked out the lunar eclipse on the 15th it was awesome! watched it from the top of a canyon...

why I'M sitting @ home on a saturday night?
Playing my guitar & writing sounded alot better than going out.

it's just one of THOSE days

2003-05-13T02:28:54Z

damn! everything i have tried doing today has NOT worked out. WHEN IS MERCURY OUTTA RETROGRADE...over it...
atleast laundry got done, except whites. TODAY is my beautiful little sisters B-day! happy3rd birthday!!! i tried driving out to chucky cheese to meet her :( during rush hour, needless to say i didn't make it..... got lost,traffic stopped, etc...
I was right in the middle of tae bo & that got interrupted,couldn't finish....Packing my things in boxes couldn't do it, have company staying here since friday..... THEN I opened my emails & got flowers from Meadowgirl. She made me smile :D Meadowgirl rocks!!!!!

Hopefully tonight WILL be better. Full report tomorrow ;)

hmmmm alot of cool things have happened lately. I've just been in bloop bloop land.
btw it seems small dogs have wanted to attack me lately. my moms dog tried to bite me 2 times last night.
??? what do i have 'scooby snack' written across my forehead?
in the words of dave uk piss up for sure 2night!
peace

starrgrrl @ 2003-05-03T23:14:00

2003-05-04T06:40:49Z

what a week! what do ya want the leg or the wing? (it's amazing how different bras can make you feel thinner, bloated, etc..... ) ok. rehearsal was awesome..we had a lot of fun ...T came into town we all had an awesome time ....Buddah (Chimene's dog) bit my face last night (right side of cheek) it's actually hurting right now.... I cried becuz I don't want a scar on my face AND it hurt. he just took a bite outta crime....
Suzy Q went home :( she will be back soon. Her going away party was @ the Rainbow on Wed. like a jackass i missed practically the whole party becuz I thought it was on Thursday. get it together Melody! I let the eagle outta the cage that day, see what happens? M still rocks the free world <3 bloop
fed sea anemones jelly fish....do clams/oysters grow on rocks? are sea anemones classified as invertebrates? must do some research...

starrgrrl @ 2003-04-28T13:34:00

2003-04-28T20:43:50Z

my tummy is burning...... who the hell bought me a flaming dr.pepper? :::gag::: i was good with my glass of wine. the meeting was successful :) (update l8ter) oh no & band outing tonight YIKES! advanced tae bo for me today to burn off all the calories i will be consuming tonight.
i had a great weekend! pizookie yum! must go get some..............haha (settle down ;) )
ohhhhhhhhhh do i really have to move today?

<3

2003-04-26T19:54:22Z

it is such a beautiful day....... beach?

OH YEAH!

2003-04-25T17:36:46Z

Legolas

Who is your Ideal Lord of the Rings (male) Mate?
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starrgrrl @ 2003-04-25T10:28:00

2003-04-25T17:28:52Z

Scary in a very good way, you're Fairuza Balk.
Intense.

What sexy girl are you
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JACKASS

2003-04-25T05:14:38Z

Marnie & I had brunch @ cafe 101....as we're walking to the car Johnny Knoxville is walking towards us...
We were completely speechless he is too HOT! I wanted to say hi but no sound was coming out & my lips were def not moving....that has never happened b4. After hyperventalating ..we just laughed & laughed...
tired must sleep